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Before Then
2024
Ecumenical Jury Prize 2024
Beste Documentary Short Film
Language can be coded, decoded, and uncoded—while still remaining deceptive and prone to failure—even in front of the closest people in life, such as between a grandmother and the granddaughter she brought up. There are things we are not courageous enough to say outright, things that slip through words; and there are also words overwhelmed by emotion, and words we fear will be understood—and are misunderstood anyway.
Language, as a process of exchanging codes, lies at the heart of Before Then. By deconstructing the Saussurean signified and signifiers, navigating between severed phonemes and semantics, and reinventing phonemes in a cross-cultural way, the film explores the existential difficulty of sharing oneself as the true self in a social context that refuses to accept one as they are. It is a complicated web of coming out without truly being able to come out; of connecting at the deepest level while remaining disconnected at one crucial level of life; of unconditional love that is so moving it hurts. The buried secret exists as a severed part of the self, tempted only by the possibility of transcending its dissociation—a kind of homecoming that is destined not really to arrive.